There's something I want, but I dont know how to get it. I can visualize my future but I have no idea how to get there.
And there's always the fear that I'm not where I'm supposed to be.
From living in a city I've learned that I need to be in one. Not permanently, but right now it's the most healthy thing for me.
I loved walking place to place. Always having a new destination. Viewing my flat as a cupboard to live in while the world buzzes around me.
In the pictures, I'm beautiful. I replay the time You told me, from an ocean away, that I've never looked better.
There was a reason for it.
I was healthy and happy, even in my downfalls.

The simplified components of that health:
-Movement: I was out walking daily, everywhere I could.
-Socalizing: I enjoyed meeting people, the ease at which I could enter and leave any encounter.
-Romance: A healthy happy relationship was budding.
-Environment: I enjoyed the things I was seeing, I loved being a part of it.

Of those components, which do I have now?
...that really depends on the day. But even at my most optimistic, I can't truthfully claim half.